Sometimes, I like the way we are. Sometimes, I prefer how things should be. The rest of the times in between, I just wish that I could change them.

I know I have been MIA for a pretty long period, here. I do update my livejournal quite regularly (: So go get yourself a livejournal and add me! HAHA Anyway, lets get to the point.

As usual, somethings happen and they always set me thinking or remind me of some things that happened. Well, I have this problem that's been stuck with me for years. I don't think before I speak and it is a terrible thing. Many times, I am sure, I hurt my mum way too deep.. She never said anything or she never cry in front of me of course but my aunt told me she did (long afterwards of course). It's a simple things and it may seem harmless but whatever I said must have hurt her so much that she sobbed.

And if it hurts me knowing that I've disappointed or hurt a friend, it certainly hurts me much more to know that I made her cry because the stupid things I said. Well, I kept on saying I want to change and I never will. I wonder what will really change me. Like instantly but I dont want to know. I should continue trying then. Even if that means I should die trying, so be it. At least I ever bother to try, yknow.

Learning point of the day:
Words can hurt others more than you think they could even when others know that you don't mean it. And no matter how much you want to take them back, you know you can't. Regrets would be all that's left...

Sometimes, I like the way we are. Sometimes, I prefer how things should be. The rest of the times in between, I just wish that I could change them.

I know I have been MIA for a pretty long period, here. I do update my livejournal quite regularly (: So go get yourself a livejournal and add me! HAHA Anyway, lets get to the point.

As usual, somethings happen and they always set me thinking or remind me of some things that happened. Well, I have this problem that's been stuck with me for years. I don't think before I speak and it is a terrible thing. Many times, I am sure, I hurt my mum way too deep.. She never said anything or she never cry in front of me of course but my aunt told me she did (long afterwards of course). It's a simple things and it may seem harmless but whatever I said must have hurt her so much that she sobbed.

And if it hurts me knowing that I've disappointed or hurt a friend, it certainly hurts me much more to know that I made her cry because the stupid things I said. Well, I kept on saying I want to change and I never will. I wonder what will really change me. Like instantly but I dont want to know. I should continue trying then. Even if that means I should die trying, so be it. At least I ever bother to try, yknow.

Learning point of the day:
Words can hurt others more than you think they could even when others know that you don't mean it. And no matter how much you want to take them back, you know you can't. Regrets would be all that's left...