I dont know whats wrong with her. When everybody is worrying about me, where's she? When everybody's asking me to go doctor, what is she doing? I really have no idea whether I matter anymore. Sometimes I think I always abandon her and go out too much so Im spending this holiday at home and wants to bring her out to eat or whatever. But it's always about her friends.

Whenever I planned or asked where she's going she'd be like "im having lunch with my friends. you go lah". Inside my mind I will be like "ALONE?!" She woke up like at 5 in the morning BEFORE school just to CHAT with her friends and today as she was going out, I told her I wanna use the comm since I have nothing else to do. I SAW IT. She was chatting and when she pass the comm, it was SHUTTING DOWN!

REALLY, WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH HER????????

Didn't I say that Im using the comm? Okay.The whole friends thing is really upsetting me. She never tells me anything. She planned her birthday bbq with her entire netball team and didnt even tell me anything. I only knew it just because they need NETS and need a card. I have to interview her, mind you, INTERVIEW her to get the details! WHAT DO I JUST MEAN TO HER? WHY AM I ALWAYS TRYING TOO HARD TO DO THINGS?

Tell me if she doesnt need me. Tell me if she doesnt want me to be there. Its much less hurtful that way. I dont have to be there. I dont even want to mix with her disgusting netball friends. She wasnt like this before she joined net ball. I just cant figure out what happen.

Today she's going out till late at night again. I really think it's not fair. Why do I always get scolded for going out with my friends when all she does is going out with hers? She doesn't even care about me or bothered to talk or ask about my day anymore. I don't know how else am I supposed to talk to her. Saturday has always been our day. Now, I've always been alone on that day. It's been like this for so long. Im not going hospital anymore. I'll just die alone.

Im too upset to even move an inch.

I dont know whats wrong with her. When everybody is worrying about me, where's she? When everybody's asking me to go doctor, what is she doing? I really have no idea whether I matter anymore. Sometimes I think I always abandon her and go out too much so Im spending this holiday at home and wants to bring her out to eat or whatever. But it's always about her friends.

Whenever I planned or asked where she's going she'd be like "im having lunch with my friends. you go lah". Inside my mind I will be like "ALONE?!" She woke up like at 5 in the morning BEFORE school just to CHAT with her friends and today as she was going out, I told her I wanna use the comm since I have nothing else to do. I SAW IT. She was chatting and when she pass the comm, it was SHUTTING DOWN!

REALLY, WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH HER????????

Didn't I say that Im using the comm? Okay.The whole friends thing is really upsetting me. She never tells me anything. She planned her birthday bbq with her entire netball team and didnt even tell me anything. I only knew it just because they need NETS and need a card. I have to interview her, mind you, INTERVIEW her to get the details! WHAT DO I JUST MEAN TO HER? WHY AM I ALWAYS TRYING TOO HARD TO DO THINGS?

Tell me if she doesnt need me. Tell me if she doesnt want me to be there. Its much less hurtful that way. I dont have to be there. I dont even want to mix with her disgusting netball friends. She wasnt like this before she joined net ball. I just cant figure out what happen.

Today she's going out till late at night again. I really think it's not fair. Why do I always get scolded for going out with my friends when all she does is going out with hers? She doesn't even care about me or bothered to talk or ask about my day anymore. I don't know how else am I supposed to talk to her. Saturday has always been our day. Now, I've always been alone on that day. It's been like this for so long. Im not going hospital anymore. I'll just die alone.

Im too upset to even move an inch.