Today, Theresa asked me why I kept buying them stuffs. As long as I can recall, its has only been twice? And it's not that Im getting some diamond rings or what.. haha to be honest I was stunned.. haha I dont know how to tell them because Im not a straight forward kind of person.. Sometimes what came out from my mouth isnt exactly something that I wish to say..
Its just because they have been nice to me and considering that I am not even close to them nor I am in their clique.. In fact, I dont have much common topic to talk to them too.. Its not like I have so much to talk to others but you get my point.. and even though they are not close to me they are still welcoming, friendly and helpful unlike some people. haishh
And to think about it, I didnt even hang out with them in year one.. Actually I didnt hang out with anyone in year 1.. Surely I was a loner... But at least at some point of time they were more like friends to me.. And I do regard them as friends.. I dont know there is just something that makes me feel more comfortable having fun around them and I quite like it except for the fact that things can turn out awkward haha..
You know sometimes presence isn't always the focal point of a relationship.. If you spend a lifetime with someone so selfish and don't even care about you, can you still call them friends? I'd rather be lonely than hurt that way..
Hmm, actually earlier this sem I was planning to go lecture with some friends from year one.. I was sincerely offering help and planning things but it seems that things will just get awkward and I really hate it when I am pressed to choose who to go lecture with.. It's not like all of them can just click and I do have to make sacrifices right? I do love them equally.. Well, may be a little bit more here and there but I do love all of them all the same.. how can I make choices..
I ended up letting go people who I think should know and understand my actions.. They called me liars but drop it not long afterwards.. I did feel bad I couldnt even look at their eyes and start conversation with them but I know that things just go back to normal and I dont think I'll try doing that again.. Trying too hard to keep my friends around, ending up losing them too..
I am not someone who is used to ask for help. I find it awkward and I hate it. But I am glad that when I really need one, you are willing to lend me a hand.. It makes me feel that I dont kill my pride for nothing and makes me feel glad for having you around! : D There's still 1 year to go, let's just have a lot of fun together! We wont know what the future may bring us so enjoy life when we can! I wish you all the happiness the earth contains! If there is ever one thing you want to remember, it is that I am here for you and will always be.. let me know when you need a helping hand (: loves you!
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I live in my little own Kpop world across that milky way.
I own tonnes 동방신기 merchandise till my house can't fit in anymore of them.
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