Hello hello there. I have been pretty busy with my life these days. I miss h13 a lot. It was fun being in it. Filled with laughters and fights ( : These days are just hectic and I have no time to think and digest things. I dont know somehow I feel guilty to my friends. Im talking about close ones here.

Im never quite sensitive to others' feelings and I shall admit that Im a very selfish person. Its all always about me, me and me.. Sometimes I know that I take things for granted just because that they are there with me and it's not that I dont appreciate things.. Its just that sometimes Im scared hurting others' feelings.. You know people are just too different and not a soul will think the exact same thing.. I cant force things and I know I shouldn't.. I dont ever want to force things to people especially those who are dear to me and make them feel uncomfortable...

If anyone ever have to change, it would have to be me.. I would have to compromise to make things work. Giving things up is never easy for me and most of the time it makes me unhappy.. :(

1 thing I hate about myself is that I can never show care and concern to ppl I love directly.. It'll seem that Im nicer and more caring to "outsiders" and I hurt my dear ones with my silly actions. : ( I know I should change but I just can't.. : (

I dont know. There are plenty of things running around my mind right now and none of them makes sense.. I will gather my thoughts and think over them carefully.. When I have the answer, I'll blog it... I hate it that I always end up hurting others and it takes a very long time for me to get close to ppl.. I would normally try to be friendly and courteous and do you know how hard it is to keep those smiles even when I'm sad? Finding those ppl whom I can cry to takes a hell lot of time and I cant afford to lose these loves in a second..

Hello hello there. I have been pretty busy with my life these days. I miss h13 a lot. It was fun being in it. Filled with laughters and fights ( : These days are just hectic and I have no time to think and digest things. I dont know somehow I feel guilty to my friends. Im talking about close ones here.

Im never quite sensitive to others' feelings and I shall admit that Im a very selfish person. Its all always about me, me and me.. Sometimes I know that I take things for granted just because that they are there with me and it's not that I dont appreciate things.. Its just that sometimes Im scared hurting others' feelings.. You know people are just too different and not a soul will think the exact same thing.. I cant force things and I know I shouldn't.. I dont ever want to force things to people especially those who are dear to me and make them feel uncomfortable...

If anyone ever have to change, it would have to be me.. I would have to compromise to make things work. Giving things up is never easy for me and most of the time it makes me unhappy.. :(

1 thing I hate about myself is that I can never show care and concern to ppl I love directly.. It'll seem that Im nicer and more caring to "outsiders" and I hurt my dear ones with my silly actions. : ( I know I should change but I just can't.. : (

I dont know. There are plenty of things running around my mind right now and none of them makes sense.. I will gather my thoughts and think over them carefully.. When I have the answer, I'll blog it... I hate it that I always end up hurting others and it takes a very long time for me to get close to ppl.. I would normally try to be friendly and courteous and do you know how hard it is to keep those smiles even when I'm sad? Finding those ppl whom I can cry to takes a hell lot of time and I cant afford to lose these loves in a second..