Ps. going to top up my card soon! So that I can flood my bro's blackberry with MMS! : D Han! Reply me soon! OR I'll slaughter you! HAHA : D I miss you more than I miss eating my fav food! It's a pity my 2 bros cant come over in December. ;( I havent seen them for almost a year. I realy wonder how they really look now. I assume, they are still as skinny as ever.. May be they are black-er now and more vain! : D OMJ! I rly want to watch them grow up..

As much as I love being here in Spore, knowing many nice people who have supported me whom I love loads and as much as Im grateful to be able to be here, getting the chance to be a better person and all, I would give this up if I could just watch them grow up and be there for them whenever they need me..

I know this may seem selfish cos if I weren't here today, my life wouldnt be as lovely and things might not even improve.. Everything would probably be worse but I always think that not being able to be there for my siblings when they need me most for my own benefit is the most horrible thing that I have ever done.. ;(

It must be very lonely for the both of them.. They have different school hours and to be stuck at home most of the time with only my grandma isnt great.. No one to play or talk to.. :( My parents are busy working and no one takes care of their academic performance.. Not that my mum has ever really bothered about it tho.. Things always seem to be so easy for her.. haha.

So, if I were given a chance, I'd quit every single activities I have in TP to take care of them if they were to come. Although it is a pity that I have to miss out on good oportunities that doesnt come often and although it may not seem fair to Nia cos it seems like I abandon her for all these activities. Im willing to change... Hopefully,, its not just another empty hopes and promises.

I will strive hard to make it come true, but first I have to work hard to make everything worth it..

Ps. going to top up my card soon! So that I can flood my bro's blackberry with MMS! : D Han! Reply me soon! OR I'll slaughter you! HAHA : D I miss you more than I miss eating my fav food! It's a pity my 2 bros cant come over in December. ;( I havent seen them for almost a year. I realy wonder how they really look now. I assume, they are still as skinny as ever.. May be they are black-er now and more vain! : D OMJ! I rly want to watch them grow up..

As much as I love being here in Spore, knowing many nice people who have supported me whom I love loads and as much as Im grateful to be able to be here, getting the chance to be a better person and all, I would give this up if I could just watch them grow up and be there for them whenever they need me..

I know this may seem selfish cos if I weren't here today, my life wouldnt be as lovely and things might not even improve.. Everything would probably be worse but I always think that not being able to be there for my siblings when they need me most for my own benefit is the most horrible thing that I have ever done.. ;(

It must be very lonely for the both of them.. They have different school hours and to be stuck at home most of the time with only my grandma isnt great.. No one to play or talk to.. :( My parents are busy working and no one takes care of their academic performance.. Not that my mum has ever really bothered about it tho.. Things always seem to be so easy for her.. haha.

So, if I were given a chance, I'd quit every single activities I have in TP to take care of them if they were to come. Although it is a pity that I have to miss out on good oportunities that doesnt come often and although it may not seem fair to Nia cos it seems like I abandon her for all these activities. Im willing to change... Hopefully,, its not just another empty hopes and promises.

I will strive hard to make it come true, but first I have to work hard to make everything worth it..