Sometimes, I wonder if everything I did actually worth my time.. Im too used to worry for people around me who I thought matter a lot to me but in actual fact, they do not. And to make the matter worse, I dont matter much to them..Sad, but to be really honest here, Im not surprised. People I loved, cared and trusted, turned their back on me. May be sometimes it happened without them realising it and I know that they didnt mean it but most of the time, it happened because people love seeing me crumble. And I swear it wont happen anymore!As much as Im hurt upon hearing things and stuffs, I wont fall and cry. I wont let anyone gain satisfaction from it. It I should suffer, if will be in silence.And another thing that I hate about myself is that, at the end of the story, I will still forget everything and start a new. Im too selfish to lose someone that deemed to be important or at least they used to be and its just hard to change a habit, isnt it?
Learning is a gift. Even when pain is your teacher.