HUH! i really have no idea why I teared again. Well, I opened blogger and clicked new post to actually give a short update of the day. I thought it would be best if i try to keep a habit of updating..But thanks for some distractions fb had for me, I felt bad? weird? sad? uh, i dont know. since when do i know myself better than anyone? I always try to comprehend myself better.. always try to ask myself questions and think of perhaps what i like and why i like them, etc... but still, i never really find out myself. and i doubt anyone besides my mother would know me better than myself..That's off of the case, anyway. Im tired (well, actually my fatigue was washed away by a sudden feeling of sadness but my body just cant help but to ache..) and to think about it again perhaps, im tired mentally. i dont know. i never really fall sick. not a single fever or cold. headaches or tummy ache would only be the case so Im physically strong right? :( i dont know what am i talking about.. im sorry..May be i just need a place to release all despair.. My heart is too full now. My mind has not a sinlge space left to let anything worry me more.. My body may not be too weary now but it will soon be too small for all these irritating and unstable emotions..I am just too weird to be a human. I cant believe that im born on earth! HAISH.May be for now what I need is company because i tend to not think when i have friends to fool around with..