Actually, I dont know. What is happiness? What is it that makes me happy? and Who is it that can make me happy. I really have no answers to many questions in my mind and I have been living each day for another. Taking it gratefully and try to smile each day. But, is it really what I want? I have doubts and no one can reassure me.The feelings just haunt me every night and I cant chase it away.
Today, there are mixed feelings. I was tired and I dont knwo what or why, I just dont like the atmosphere. it feels like it is getting heavier. Well, may be its just me that is getting more sensitive. I get upset easily over simple things. And i have been thinking.There are so many things in my mind right now and I just dont know how to put them into words. Perhaps may be I am such a failure. I failed to recognise the difference between care and take care. Although I will never agree if anyone say that I am such a bad sister, I would admit it here. It is really embarassing but it is the fact. Care, worries and thoughts does no impact. I have not taken care of my siblings and my care and concern does no action. I could only get teary and upset but have i really reach out my hands and put myself on their shoes? have i do anything to protect them? Im real upset that I am such a failure and i will reflect on it. I will try finding out the difference between care and take care. And I promise to change.
Another thing is that there is one thing I always want to do. Hang out with godbro, shinn and pj. Its saddening that we have never go out to chill and just shop or catch a movie. i just want to hang out. no PACE stuffs. just relax.
I love them and I want to spend more time getting to know each other. For example, js, he is my godbro and yet i dont know much about him.. haha its really embarassing you know :P hehe and i guess everyone deserves a break.. it's holiday after all and i know they have worked hard..
HAISH. Im missing H13 and 07's company too.. I wish I could stop all the work and meet up with them soon! especially my girls! :D
Ah! anyway, I have talked to my exhousemates through msn. I guess there is a benefit for going to msn.. I dont really like cos sometimes it makes my com lag.. but I MISS THEM more than anything else! they were the closest thing to family I used to have.. they play and help me all the time.. i smile, cry, laugh and do everything with them. i love them. and that will never change.
I LOVE THE WORLD. AND I HATE THAT FATAL FLAW.
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Hi! I am Little Miss 김신해♥.
I live in my little own Kpop world across that milky way.
I own tonnes 동방신기 merchandise till my house can't fit in anymore of them.
Eating ramen, bibimbab, inari sushi and egg tart makes me a happy girl.
I love taking photographs and doing aegyo.
I whine worse than any other baby girls in this universe and I have no intention to change.
I wish to marry my true love someday and live in a cozy house in one of Korea's prettiest streets. ت
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