im finally done with mkt ppr slides n cue cards but well! my part is like 10 minutes n no matter how much i practiced, i stumbled a lot n my throat is like shit. i guess coz i kept eating oreo and tibits :'C i cant afford to lose my 5% coz i want my A n its not possible if i dont do well for this presentation!


haish anyway. im quite disappointed. well. not anything big. its just something that has got to do with my feelings. haha. im not quite sure how to explain this correctly. its just when i thought that certain people are my friends and they will care about me. well, i expected them to care cos i tot we are close but they didn't. they didn't even notice a single shit. and the worse thing is that those i expected wont care, do care and talked to me.. this is kinda irritating. i dont like it when my feelings are cheated this way.. hahas.

ahhh. anyway, im not disappointed just because of that. cos it happened like million times alr. anyway, tomorrow its gg to change back and change again and again and again. keep cheating my feelings :'C but what can i do? true friends are not easy to find..

im disappointed yet happy knowing that i cant possibly be the one. i dont want to ruin anything not a single shit cos im loving it the way it is now. i dont want a single little shit to ruin all these. i dont care if you wont say it now. i will know it sooner or later hahas. but im disappointed cos im not trusted. its not like im going to spread rumours and tell everyone about it but oh well. im too noisy anyway.
and im disappointed knowing that people are different when they are with different people. although im fully aware that i am 360 degree different with different group of friends. but now i understand how it feels to witness it. so yup..

haissh. i dont like anyone currently. but please stop pushing it. hahaha
i do care for you and everybody else and thats it okayy.. i just want everyone to be happy..


and one last thing before i go off to bed. i want to confess something i feel really guilty about.
i have been letting my sis doing the laundry these days and make her iron clothes at times too.. and abandon her for long period at home alone. idk if she ever eat when im enjoying food in sugarloaf :X and make her stay at home while i go out with my class or have pace stuffs to do. i have been living her all alone. and i really cant help but feel like crying now :'( like seriously, i dont want her to take all the burden herself at a very young age. im really bad. and i want to make it up to her. i want to bring her to shop and spend an entire week with her. buy her food and feed her with loads of nice nice food. and let her do waht she wants..

im praying hard that i will have the time to do that XoX

going off to bed...

im finally done with mkt ppr slides n cue cards but well! my part is like 10 minutes n no matter how much i practiced, i stumbled a lot n my throat is like shit. i guess coz i kept eating oreo and tibits :'C i cant afford to lose my 5% coz i want my A n its not possible if i dont do well for this presentation!


haish anyway. im quite disappointed. well. not anything big. its just something that has got to do with my feelings. haha. im not quite sure how to explain this correctly. its just when i thought that certain people are my friends and they will care about me. well, i expected them to care cos i tot we are close but they didn't. they didn't even notice a single shit. and the worse thing is that those i expected wont care, do care and talked to me.. this is kinda irritating. i dont like it when my feelings are cheated this way.. hahas.

ahhh. anyway, im not disappointed just because of that. cos it happened like million times alr. anyway, tomorrow its gg to change back and change again and again and again. keep cheating my feelings :'C but what can i do? true friends are not easy to find..

im disappointed yet happy knowing that i cant possibly be the one. i dont want to ruin anything not a single shit cos im loving it the way it is now. i dont want a single little shit to ruin all these. i dont care if you wont say it now. i will know it sooner or later hahas. but im disappointed cos im not trusted. its not like im going to spread rumours and tell everyone about it but oh well. im too noisy anyway.
and im disappointed knowing that people are different when they are with different people. although im fully aware that i am 360 degree different with different group of friends. but now i understand how it feels to witness it. so yup..

haissh. i dont like anyone currently. but please stop pushing it. hahaha
i do care for you and everybody else and thats it okayy.. i just want everyone to be happy..


and one last thing before i go off to bed. i want to confess something i feel really guilty about.
i have been letting my sis doing the laundry these days and make her iron clothes at times too.. and abandon her for long period at home alone. idk if she ever eat when im enjoying food in sugarloaf :X and make her stay at home while i go out with my class or have pace stuffs to do. i have been living her all alone. and i really cant help but feel like crying now :'( like seriously, i dont want her to take all the burden herself at a very young age. im really bad. and i want to make it up to her. i want to bring her to shop and spend an entire week with her. buy her food and feed her with loads of nice nice food. and let her do waht she wants..

im praying hard that i will have the time to do that XoX

going off to bed...