okay. basically today is not that upsetting. it is not that agitating. may be because i was too tired to get that angry. but if i could take an injection to be immune to all her rubbish it'll be much better!

huh. i missed a day with my freshies. well it is upsetting but at the same time all though things were pretty much screwed, i am glad that i went for this duty.. i'll take it as a learning experience.. things were so messy and it was frustrating.. but the frustration just drain away.. i was filled with dizziness of loud noises and the crowd..
haiizzz i feel like an old grand ma seriously.. i always always always without fail, feel dizzy when im in a crowded or noisy place.. even as an SL, i lose my focus just because i keep on cheering! so funny right! i got dizzy of hearing my own voice!! this is why i dont like parties.. i can never survive.. haha that's why i prefer to stay at home or go out alone.. rather than with so many ppl..

there were things that i failed to do but unexpectedly my feelings are just not there.. like i was scared after screwing things up.. please lah, who don't?
but i was scared that i'll get scolded.. that's all.. i think i shall train myself to be more focus and observant under any circumstances.. also, i need to be more flexible...


i'll end it here. im really tired and u know that i need to rest. tmr need to go for CYA training.. how i wish they don't start duty so fast.. i really have a lot of things.. may be its time to let go?

okay. basically today is not that upsetting. it is not that agitating. may be because i was too tired to get that angry. but if i could take an injection to be immune to all her rubbish it'll be much better!

huh. i missed a day with my freshies. well it is upsetting but at the same time all though things were pretty much screwed, i am glad that i went for this duty.. i'll take it as a learning experience.. things were so messy and it was frustrating.. but the frustration just drain away.. i was filled with dizziness of loud noises and the crowd..
haiizzz i feel like an old grand ma seriously.. i always always always without fail, feel dizzy when im in a crowded or noisy place.. even as an SL, i lose my focus just because i keep on cheering! so funny right! i got dizzy of hearing my own voice!! this is why i dont like parties.. i can never survive.. haha that's why i prefer to stay at home or go out alone.. rather than with so many ppl..

there were things that i failed to do but unexpectedly my feelings are just not there.. like i was scared after screwing things up.. please lah, who don't?
but i was scared that i'll get scolded.. that's all.. i think i shall train myself to be more focus and observant under any circumstances.. also, i need to be more flexible...


i'll end it here. im really tired and u know that i need to rest. tmr need to go for CYA training.. how i wish they don't start duty so fast.. i really have a lot of things.. may be its time to let go?