Ahh~ i really dont know whats wrong with me.. Its just another day without sleep.. and yet I feel so sleepy.. OMG! has my energy reached its peak? My stomach has been giving me trouble.. It has been aching and anching and aching. arghhh and i hate that!!!

tomorrow meeting fatin for lunch and then going for rehearsal. I am thinking of giving up SL if this pain can just go away like now.. My headache is enough for me to handle.. if there's ever one thing i should be glad now, it is that i don't have to have a nightmare tonight about service s m..

i am sure that who ever see the amount of documents needed to be printed will scold the f word like mad.. coz i am so tempted to do it! grrr i am shocked! overwhelmed.. there are so many info to digest.. and so little time i have!

some more need to take vaccination or sth like that.. i am sure that i have completed all my vaccination.. but thing is they need evidence.. ahh i never really say this but i am scared of needles.. please lahh who are not.. i am this is obvious right? natural right??
i dont want to get injected!! some more i am scared there'll be side effects!
damn it.. i can't find time to go and do it some more!! grrrr.. this is just adding more weight.. haiz

hopefully, i can make everything by tomorrow.. I jsut realised that this is 6.10 alr!!! means i cant sleep even fr 2 hours TT.TT i dont mind actually but this is really madness.. sch hasnt started and i am like working 24/7 already.. thanks to s s m lahhhhh! u know that i just managed saving every docs!! just saving!! saving u know! not printing!!!
imagine i need to open 1 by 1 and print! OMG. im dead.

actually, i feel some things are not relevant and not important.. but to play safe just print out lahh.. din want to print outt at first.. but will be printing in the end.. haiizzzzz

I am super scared.. firstly because we are changing class and im scared waiting fr time table to be out.. secondl, its because the most popular and well-liked subject called s s s s s s s s shit lahhh.. hahaha im so tired..

im really sorry to all my friends that i have abandoned due to work.. sorry to everyone that i have lost contact with.. sorry to all my gls that i am not up to their expectations.. i just cant keep trying to make everyone happy but me.. it is time to make the right decision, dont u think?

it is not the matter whether you like it or not.. just like what roy told me about his work.. it's not that he likes or he wants to but he needs to.. Shouldn't i make similar decision? i htink it is about time to not think about everyone else but me. (actually, to just continue what i have been doing. ignorant and cant be bothered by others.) but TP has changed me in a way to be more bonded with others. since the day i meet my lovely gls, things have been different.. and im really sad that i cant continue what i love doing.. having fun, cheering and just be myself..

there are just a few things that i cant explain.. there are things that im still confuse about.. but i'll take it as it comes as for now.. i have no time to worry or to continue feeling sorry..
i will make up for it, i promise.. for all the time that i make you cry alone. for all the time that i make you sit and wait for me. for all the time i wasted doing work instead of spending it with you. for all the faults and lame jokes that hurt you.. for everything.. for all the care and concern you guys showered me with but i didn't return.. and for all the hugs that i missed when u needed them the most TT.TT i am sorry.. i really am.. i know i dont deserve it but i just want u to know that i have not forgotten about u..

but the one that im most sorry to is my sis.. im truly sorry that i cant be by urside everyday and follow up with your studies.. sometimes i even scold u for telling me ur school life stories cz im just too tired to hear it.. im really sorry for being that selfish.. really sorry for abandoning u alone and let you do many things you are not supposed to.. sorry for being missing for all the time.. sorry for not being there when you need me the most.. sorry for just leaving u with a huge burden and sorry for wanting you to grow up too quickly.. i am really sorry for whatever i have ever said to you.. for whatever i did and for whatever i did not do.. i am sorry for just being so demanding and sorry for not trying to understand your feeling.. i want u to benefit and i want u to know if even your sister can think about sth bad about you what more about outsiders? why should i hide the fact when u have someone to point it out tio u to improve?? i have always been grateful having ko jimmy around to listen to my crap and lousy theories.. to point out all my mistakes and bad points. who said that i dont like him for that? who said that i was never angry at him?? who said that i just accept everything he said and ammend my ways??
i was always hearing him half-heartedly.. not wanting to admit that he is right.. i was angry.. but i dont know at what.. is it at him or at the things that he said? deep down i knew its the fact but i refused to acknowledge that he is right.. but do u really think i just sit and do nth but listen to him? i challenged and say "no, you are not right" and i was strong-willed to prove him wrong..

i dont need you to love me and do all the sweet stuffs for me.. go out with me like you always do with your friends or choosing to spend ur days with me instead of having fun outside?? spending ur day with me will earn u scoldings and nagging.. so i understand.. but i want to be someone that u are grateful to know.. just know is enough..i just want to be the one that you are proud knowing.. i want to be the one correcting your mistakes and shape your character.. i just want to be the one watching you grow.. but it seems harder that i thought.. u just dont listen to anything i said and take me for granted.. no matter how much i feel upset about this.. there is nothing i can do.. after abandoning you this way.. this is nothing compared to that...

haizzz i am so hungryyyyyyyyy!!!

U KNOW WHAT JUST HAPPENED????!!! @#$%^&*()

i was printing the stack of notes.. it is not even 3/4 of it nad my ink went from 90% to like 30% now!!!!! and i run out of A4 paper!!! and and and i printed some pages wrongly!!! but hopefully can still read... omgggg im super sian now.. tmr go sch and print out.. damn it lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh why this kind of thing always happen to me huh?? i can go sleep still.. work is waitinggg.....

my budget allocation.. ohmy.... i tell u first ok, if lets say i fainted during SL orientation week 0 right.. please please plaese just bring me home.. i dont need any medicine or what,, i just need my bed ok?? pleaseee


ahhh i need to see if i can source for more paper like now.. and get somethigns done at least.. then se if i can still get some sleep..

night everyone

Ahh~ i really dont know whats wrong with me.. Its just another day without sleep.. and yet I feel so sleepy.. OMG! has my energy reached its peak? My stomach has been giving me trouble.. It has been aching and anching and aching. arghhh and i hate that!!!

tomorrow meeting fatin for lunch and then going for rehearsal. I am thinking of giving up SL if this pain can just go away like now.. My headache is enough for me to handle.. if there's ever one thing i should be glad now, it is that i don't have to have a nightmare tonight about service s m..

i am sure that who ever see the amount of documents needed to be printed will scold the f word like mad.. coz i am so tempted to do it! grrr i am shocked! overwhelmed.. there are so many info to digest.. and so little time i have!

some more need to take vaccination or sth like that.. i am sure that i have completed all my vaccination.. but thing is they need evidence.. ahh i never really say this but i am scared of needles.. please lahh who are not.. i am this is obvious right? natural right??
i dont want to get injected!! some more i am scared there'll be side effects!
damn it.. i can't find time to go and do it some more!! grrrr.. this is just adding more weight.. haiz

hopefully, i can make everything by tomorrow.. I jsut realised that this is 6.10 alr!!! means i cant sleep even fr 2 hours TT.TT i dont mind actually but this is really madness.. sch hasnt started and i am like working 24/7 already.. thanks to s s m lahhhhh! u know that i just managed saving every docs!! just saving!! saving u know! not printing!!!
imagine i need to open 1 by 1 and print! OMG. im dead.

actually, i feel some things are not relevant and not important.. but to play safe just print out lahh.. din want to print outt at first.. but will be printing in the end.. haiizzzzz

I am super scared.. firstly because we are changing class and im scared waiting fr time table to be out.. secondl, its because the most popular and well-liked subject called s s s s s s s s shit lahhh.. hahaha im so tired..

im really sorry to all my friends that i have abandoned due to work.. sorry to everyone that i have lost contact with.. sorry to all my gls that i am not up to their expectations.. i just cant keep trying to make everyone happy but me.. it is time to make the right decision, dont u think?

it is not the matter whether you like it or not.. just like what roy told me about his work.. it's not that he likes or he wants to but he needs to.. Shouldn't i make similar decision? i htink it is about time to not think about everyone else but me. (actually, to just continue what i have been doing. ignorant and cant be bothered by others.) but TP has changed me in a way to be more bonded with others. since the day i meet my lovely gls, things have been different.. and im really sad that i cant continue what i love doing.. having fun, cheering and just be myself..

there are just a few things that i cant explain.. there are things that im still confuse about.. but i'll take it as it comes as for now.. i have no time to worry or to continue feeling sorry..
i will make up for it, i promise.. for all the time that i make you cry alone. for all the time that i make you sit and wait for me. for all the time i wasted doing work instead of spending it with you. for all the faults and lame jokes that hurt you.. for everything.. for all the care and concern you guys showered me with but i didn't return.. and for all the hugs that i missed when u needed them the most TT.TT i am sorry.. i really am.. i know i dont deserve it but i just want u to know that i have not forgotten about u..

but the one that im most sorry to is my sis.. im truly sorry that i cant be by urside everyday and follow up with your studies.. sometimes i even scold u for telling me ur school life stories cz im just too tired to hear it.. im really sorry for being that selfish.. really sorry for abandoning u alone and let you do many things you are not supposed to.. sorry for being missing for all the time.. sorry for not being there when you need me the most.. sorry for just leaving u with a huge burden and sorry for wanting you to grow up too quickly.. i am really sorry for whatever i have ever said to you.. for whatever i did and for whatever i did not do.. i am sorry for just being so demanding and sorry for not trying to understand your feeling.. i want u to benefit and i want u to know if even your sister can think about sth bad about you what more about outsiders? why should i hide the fact when u have someone to point it out tio u to improve?? i have always been grateful having ko jimmy around to listen to my crap and lousy theories.. to point out all my mistakes and bad points. who said that i dont like him for that? who said that i was never angry at him?? who said that i just accept everything he said and ammend my ways??
i was always hearing him half-heartedly.. not wanting to admit that he is right.. i was angry.. but i dont know at what.. is it at him or at the things that he said? deep down i knew its the fact but i refused to acknowledge that he is right.. but do u really think i just sit and do nth but listen to him? i challenged and say "no, you are not right" and i was strong-willed to prove him wrong..

i dont need you to love me and do all the sweet stuffs for me.. go out with me like you always do with your friends or choosing to spend ur days with me instead of having fun outside?? spending ur day with me will earn u scoldings and nagging.. so i understand.. but i want to be someone that u are grateful to know.. just know is enough..i just want to be the one that you are proud knowing.. i want to be the one correcting your mistakes and shape your character.. i just want to be the one watching you grow.. but it seems harder that i thought.. u just dont listen to anything i said and take me for granted.. no matter how much i feel upset about this.. there is nothing i can do.. after abandoning you this way.. this is nothing compared to that...

haizzz i am so hungryyyyyyyyy!!!

U KNOW WHAT JUST HAPPENED????!!! @#$%^&*()

i was printing the stack of notes.. it is not even 3/4 of it nad my ink went from 90% to like 30% now!!!!! and i run out of A4 paper!!! and and and i printed some pages wrongly!!! but hopefully can still read... omgggg im super sian now.. tmr go sch and print out.. damn it lahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh why this kind of thing always happen to me huh?? i can go sleep still.. work is waitinggg.....

my budget allocation.. ohmy.... i tell u first ok, if lets say i fainted during SL orientation week 0 right.. please please plaese just bring me home.. i dont need any medicine or what,, i just need my bed ok?? pleaseee


ahhh i need to see if i can source for more paper like now.. and get somethigns done at least.. then se if i can still get some sleep..

night everyone