Things that everyone say to me:

1. Hey, you are back!

2. Where's my souvenir? :P

3. Dont worry you'll see them again soon! (:

4. So sad that u missed the camp!


Haha this shows only one thing.. they have so much similarities!! they even think the same! hehe thanks a lot for the concern! (: and i am sorry.. i realli forgot to bring the souvenirss.. not on purpose kays? (:

huh. i really miss my brothers.. just ytd i disturbed and laughed together with them and it feels like i just woke up from a dream.. everything just disappear! huh i think its called homesick.. huh this is the real reason why i dont like going back to Indo :'(

all the comfort, joy and warmth just buy me.. and i would very much want to stay.. don't you think dreams are better than reality in a way?? but us, human.. can never be satisfied with anything.. why is it so hard to be a human??

luckily, now my bro finally wants to go online.. hahas i dont realli know wats the reason behind it but im guessing its because of girlss.. haha so i can chat and even video call with them.. even tho i still cant see them.. hahas but it's an improvement isnt it? (:


ahh. anyway. talked to Jo regarding Uni.. huhh. i always try to escape thinking about this issue.. up to this moment im still confused of wether or not i will go to U..
unlike when i was younger, now it seems like going to U isnt something big.. it is not really important now.. i dont know why..
is it because the feeling that i wont have enough time? it feels damn retarded coz i am just 17 and i still have like at least another 20 years to live..
(but i will never know what is going to happen tmr right?)

huh.. anyway. i think time is just an excuse.. i just feel that if i go to Uni, my dream wont come true..
i will lose my youth and i wont have the time to explore and make my dreams come true.. huhh. what is exactly my dream? huuh..
i have a few.. but this one is the most important among all..

after achieving this, then i want to proceed to my second dream.. (:
i think for this one only Zo and Jo know.. i dont say it out normally.. and actually it doesnt really matter if it doesnt come true.. hehe [then i cant call it a dream, can i?]
but still i would like to give it a try.. even if i fail, i'll be happy to have achieved the first one.. most prob i'll just open a small restaurant and live happily afterwards (:

i know that the second dream is kinda impossible if i choose not to go to Uni.. but i need to let go certain things to achieve the others right??
huh. sacrife. anyway. i can only plan.. the rest is up to my luck and God.. if it is really the best choice for me.. im sure it'll go well.. afterall we just need to take things as they come right?

ahh.actualli i planned to go for part time courses.. so i can work and study at the same time just like wat my father suggested.. but one thing that i was worried about that it'll be tiring and i cant get the best of me..
wont it be a waste then? :( but was seriously considering it.. but then Jo said that local U may not offer part time courses.. upon hearing that, my heart broke into pieces TT.TT
other alternative will be SIM.. and i really really dislike SIM! so can forget it! and as my mum wont let me go to Swiss (altho i have begged before going to TP)


so im left with Oz..haizz.. it is the last place i want to go too :( i dont know what's the real reason for it but i guess its just because a lot of ppl have this perspective that Oz is better..
and they go there after they finish their sec sch here in Sg.. some even go to further places such as US not because the education there is famous (coz im pretty sure they just get into private institutions which existence is not even significant)..

why are they doing that? because they'll look good when ppl ask, "where are u studying now?" and ppl will think like WOOWW!! but does it matter where you are studying? i mean if the quality of school is the least of your concern, does the country you are staying make a diff? seriously.. you going abroad to study right? so what matter most is what u'll learn there..
not the amount of fun you are going to get.. huh
if i could read ppl's mind the way Edward does.. hahas okok. i'll stop..

anyway. im pretty sure, i'll end up in Oz.. idk why.. but i just have this feeling that i'll be there someday..not my choice.. but i feel that because it is what i dont want so i will get it.. hahas lets just forget this.. and delay this issue further..

anyway.. i have 2 more years to think right? i can still change my mind and find the best alternatives..just take it as it comes.. slow and steady.. isnt it the way you always do it? (:

anywayyys..
huh. i wonder what should i do these few weeks?? i would want to find some part time work.. but if i can find one, it'd be a miracle.. huh i wonder what should I do to earn money now?
headacheessss.. (actually i am really having an headache.. huh dont know why)

i am really trying to squeeze my brain to plan of what to do these few weeks before sch reopens.. what a boredom.. and i need to remind myself when to take SSM uniform and check out timetable.. and most importantly.. when sch starts! HAHA yeapp i dont know when sch starts.. if you happen to read this post.. please tell me LOL

good night every soul on earth! :D

Things that everyone say to me:

1. Hey, you are back!

2. Where's my souvenir? :P

3. Dont worry you'll see them again soon! (:

4. So sad that u missed the camp!


Haha this shows only one thing.. they have so much similarities!! they even think the same! hehe thanks a lot for the concern! (: and i am sorry.. i realli forgot to bring the souvenirss.. not on purpose kays? (:

huh. i really miss my brothers.. just ytd i disturbed and laughed together with them and it feels like i just woke up from a dream.. everything just disappear! huh i think its called homesick.. huh this is the real reason why i dont like going back to Indo :'(

all the comfort, joy and warmth just buy me.. and i would very much want to stay.. don't you think dreams are better than reality in a way?? but us, human.. can never be satisfied with anything.. why is it so hard to be a human??

luckily, now my bro finally wants to go online.. hahas i dont realli know wats the reason behind it but im guessing its because of girlss.. haha so i can chat and even video call with them.. even tho i still cant see them.. hahas but it's an improvement isnt it? (:


ahh. anyway. talked to Jo regarding Uni.. huhh. i always try to escape thinking about this issue.. up to this moment im still confused of wether or not i will go to U..
unlike when i was younger, now it seems like going to U isnt something big.. it is not really important now.. i dont know why..
is it because the feeling that i wont have enough time? it feels damn retarded coz i am just 17 and i still have like at least another 20 years to live..
(but i will never know what is going to happen tmr right?)

huh.. anyway. i think time is just an excuse.. i just feel that if i go to Uni, my dream wont come true..
i will lose my youth and i wont have the time to explore and make my dreams come true.. huhh. what is exactly my dream? huuh..
i have a few.. but this one is the most important among all..

after achieving this, then i want to proceed to my second dream.. (:
i think for this one only Zo and Jo know.. i dont say it out normally.. and actually it doesnt really matter if it doesnt come true.. hehe [then i cant call it a dream, can i?]
but still i would like to give it a try.. even if i fail, i'll be happy to have achieved the first one.. most prob i'll just open a small restaurant and live happily afterwards (:

i know that the second dream is kinda impossible if i choose not to go to Uni.. but i need to let go certain things to achieve the others right??
huh. sacrife. anyway. i can only plan.. the rest is up to my luck and God.. if it is really the best choice for me.. im sure it'll go well.. afterall we just need to take things as they come right?

ahh.actualli i planned to go for part time courses.. so i can work and study at the same time just like wat my father suggested.. but one thing that i was worried about that it'll be tiring and i cant get the best of me..
wont it be a waste then? :( but was seriously considering it.. but then Jo said that local U may not offer part time courses.. upon hearing that, my heart broke into pieces TT.TT
other alternative will be SIM.. and i really really dislike SIM! so can forget it! and as my mum wont let me go to Swiss (altho i have begged before going to TP)


so im left with Oz..haizz.. it is the last place i want to go too :( i dont know what's the real reason for it but i guess its just because a lot of ppl have this perspective that Oz is better..
and they go there after they finish their sec sch here in Sg.. some even go to further places such as US not because the education there is famous (coz im pretty sure they just get into private institutions which existence is not even significant)..

why are they doing that? because they'll look good when ppl ask, "where are u studying now?" and ppl will think like WOOWW!! but does it matter where you are studying? i mean if the quality of school is the least of your concern, does the country you are staying make a diff? seriously.. you going abroad to study right? so what matter most is what u'll learn there..
not the amount of fun you are going to get.. huh
if i could read ppl's mind the way Edward does.. hahas okok. i'll stop..

anyway. im pretty sure, i'll end up in Oz.. idk why.. but i just have this feeling that i'll be there someday..not my choice.. but i feel that because it is what i dont want so i will get it.. hahas lets just forget this.. and delay this issue further..

anyway.. i have 2 more years to think right? i can still change my mind and find the best alternatives..just take it as it comes.. slow and steady.. isnt it the way you always do it? (:

anywayyys..
huh. i wonder what should i do these few weeks?? i would want to find some part time work.. but if i can find one, it'd be a miracle.. huh i wonder what should I do to earn money now?
headacheessss.. (actually i am really having an headache.. huh dont know why)

i am really trying to squeeze my brain to plan of what to do these few weeks before sch reopens.. what a boredom.. and i need to remind myself when to take SSM uniform and check out timetable.. and most importantly.. when sch starts! HAHA yeapp i dont know when sch starts.. if you happen to read this post.. please tell me LOL

good night every soul on earth! :D