INDONESIA!! IM COMING!!!! (:
i have been away for a really really long time.. i dont know if i should feel happy to go home or what.. of course im happy seeing my entire family and be home again! sleep on my bed with aircon on (: im happy to slack and going for a little jog and play badminton in the morning with my family.. eat my favourite foodSS LOL of course i am really happy!

BUT.. i have not been home for a very long time.. like more than a year? and there are many changes for sure.. many! things are not the same anymore.. and i am just scared? i really dont know.. i am just scared i cant communicate with my family and everything will be just weird? besides, after a long time not seeing a lot of them, i am scared that i cant even talk to them!

furthermore.. i have lost contact with all my friends and i dont know how to contact them! and i really doubt i can go out with them.. i feel really bad.. cz im acting like i have forgotten about them! who can ever forget your childhood friends??! :( and even if we go out together, everything will just be weird right? :( i really dont know what to say.. too many changes.. we are just too different and even a friend who has been with me from primary 1 to sec 1.. who i know for more than 10 years.. is not the same anymore.. and it is just a lie to say that we are still the best of friends..

the old us are gone and i prefer it to jsut stay as happy memories.. which can still make me smile and laugh when im down.. it is better than pretending that we still know each other best.. i think it is just me coz i have been avoiding him.. but i really dont want to change my impression of him.. dont want to destroy all my happy memories and chase away the old him that i used to know.. OMGS! why am i keep on thinking about this? i need to learn how to let go right?

i cant always get whatever i want and certain things are just not meant to last.. or nothing ever lasts? huuuh. i really dont know.. it is all full of uncertainties.. im not sure if my trip will be a good and enjoyable one or it'll be a tiring one :(

the other thing that i am concern is my post trip.. i am really scared that i will get home sick afterwards.. it has never been easy after a trip.. i will always miss home and food of course after i get back :P and i need at least a few days to get over it.. the longest was weeks :P but hopefully it wont happen this time.. i may need to adapt again but hopefully not homesick.. (: because i'll be having SL Camp on 23-25 March.. and i hope it'll be a FUN one! (: and i still have Fatin around.. will be celebrating her birthday at Fresh Bulgogi! YAY! HEHE
and i still have my outreach committee.. meeting on 26 March.. LOL (yea. i cant escape from work.. which mean i still need to do work in indo :o)

and speaking SL camp.. it is going to be held on 23 (Min Yi's bdae), 24 (Joseph's bdae) and 25 (Jamey's bdae) March! OMGS! i cant celebrate with them.. and Pei Jun was thinking of planning a celebration for Jo.. i think he'll be delighted or surprised? but too bad i can't celebrate with them.. :( Pei Jun i give u a moral support ok? LOL ahh. and say happy bdae for me LOL

ah. anyway. talked to Pei Jun a lot and i feel weird for not liking anyone now.. HAHA but i always have this dream to marry my first love.. which i know is quite impossible.. :P but..i have my jae joong babyy~ so i have no worries for now.. slowly find (:

ok. i shall end it here.. i know you are going to miss me.. but please dont okay? LOVVL! (laugh out very very loud) ROFLS :P will get you some stuffs from indo if i can go out ok? and if there's anything u want me to help u buy eg.perfume from airport cz there's no GST, so its cheaper LOL just msg me ok? please msg to +628125535650.. but dont forget to say who you are (:
if nothing imp then can save ur money :P HAHA



DONT MISS ME YAHHHH~~~
HE HE HE :P

INDONESIA!! IM COMING!!!! (:
i have been away for a really really long time.. i dont know if i should feel happy to go home or what.. of course im happy seeing my entire family and be home again! sleep on my bed with aircon on (: im happy to slack and going for a little jog and play badminton in the morning with my family.. eat my favourite foodSS LOL of course i am really happy!

BUT.. i have not been home for a very long time.. like more than a year? and there are many changes for sure.. many! things are not the same anymore.. and i am just scared? i really dont know.. i am just scared i cant communicate with my family and everything will be just weird? besides, after a long time not seeing a lot of them, i am scared that i cant even talk to them!

furthermore.. i have lost contact with all my friends and i dont know how to contact them! and i really doubt i can go out with them.. i feel really bad.. cz im acting like i have forgotten about them! who can ever forget your childhood friends??! :( and even if we go out together, everything will just be weird right? :( i really dont know what to say.. too many changes.. we are just too different and even a friend who has been with me from primary 1 to sec 1.. who i know for more than 10 years.. is not the same anymore.. and it is just a lie to say that we are still the best of friends..

the old us are gone and i prefer it to jsut stay as happy memories.. which can still make me smile and laugh when im down.. it is better than pretending that we still know each other best.. i think it is just me coz i have been avoiding him.. but i really dont want to change my impression of him.. dont want to destroy all my happy memories and chase away the old him that i used to know.. OMGS! why am i keep on thinking about this? i need to learn how to let go right?

i cant always get whatever i want and certain things are just not meant to last.. or nothing ever lasts? huuuh. i really dont know.. it is all full of uncertainties.. im not sure if my trip will be a good and enjoyable one or it'll be a tiring one :(

the other thing that i am concern is my post trip.. i am really scared that i will get home sick afterwards.. it has never been easy after a trip.. i will always miss home and food of course after i get back :P and i need at least a few days to get over it.. the longest was weeks :P but hopefully it wont happen this time.. i may need to adapt again but hopefully not homesick.. (: because i'll be having SL Camp on 23-25 March.. and i hope it'll be a FUN one! (: and i still have Fatin around.. will be celebrating her birthday at Fresh Bulgogi! YAY! HEHE
and i still have my outreach committee.. meeting on 26 March.. LOL (yea. i cant escape from work.. which mean i still need to do work in indo :o)

and speaking SL camp.. it is going to be held on 23 (Min Yi's bdae), 24 (Joseph's bdae) and 25 (Jamey's bdae) March! OMGS! i cant celebrate with them.. and Pei Jun was thinking of planning a celebration for Jo.. i think he'll be delighted or surprised? but too bad i can't celebrate with them.. :( Pei Jun i give u a moral support ok? LOL ahh. and say happy bdae for me LOL

ah. anyway. talked to Pei Jun a lot and i feel weird for not liking anyone now.. HAHA but i always have this dream to marry my first love.. which i know is quite impossible.. :P but..i have my jae joong babyy~ so i have no worries for now.. slowly find (:

ok. i shall end it here.. i know you are going to miss me.. but please dont okay? LOVVL! (laugh out very very loud) ROFLS :P will get you some stuffs from indo if i can go out ok? and if there's anything u want me to help u buy eg.perfume from airport cz there's no GST, so its cheaper LOL just msg me ok? please msg to +628125535650.. but dont forget to say who you are (:
if nothing imp then can save ur money :P HAHA



DONT MISS ME YAHHHH~~~
HE HE HE :P