i dont know why i shall feel this way. really. but one thing i know and i regret most is not having the courage to say what i want to say..

caring and showing it is one thing.. but having the courage to stand and stay is another thing..
i dont want to just be one who will share all joy and laughter.. i dont want to just be happy all the time.. what will happiness mean to you when you have it all the time with you?? not embracing it and taking it for granted is the least i want my loved ones to do..

loved ones.. of course my family members will be on top.. but i want you.. yes you.. the one that is reading now.. i want you to know that you are my loved ones as well.. i may be ignorant at times and i may argue or scold you like mad.. make your life like a living hell.. but i truly care and i just want you to know that..

losing you is the least thing i want to happen and even though i always act dumb just to see you smile.. i dont need you to smile all the time.. i dont want you to smile and put on your mask.. when you are with me, i want to see you.. not the mask.. and share your tears and anger..

frankly, i prefer you to cry and let it all go then acting strong and happy.. i just want you to be you.. my heart hurts so much seeing how much you have changed.. and it hurts everytime knowing that all your laughter is all an act..

i know you won't be reading this.. may be not just yet.. may be by the time you read this i will be resting in peace :P kidding. may be everything will be long over.. and life will just be too perfect to be true and may be you don't need me anymore.. but i just want you to know that i will love you for whoever you are.. and whatever happens just know that you have me here.. (actually this implies to everyone.. just know that i will be here and find me no matter what.. i will always have time for you.. because you are my friend.. a friend will always be there for each other and help each other through everything right?)

are you my friend then? (:

i dont know why i shall feel this way. really. but one thing i know and i regret most is not having the courage to say what i want to say..

caring and showing it is one thing.. but having the courage to stand and stay is another thing..
i dont want to just be one who will share all joy and laughter.. i dont want to just be happy all the time.. what will happiness mean to you when you have it all the time with you?? not embracing it and taking it for granted is the least i want my loved ones to do..

loved ones.. of course my family members will be on top.. but i want you.. yes you.. the one that is reading now.. i want you to know that you are my loved ones as well.. i may be ignorant at times and i may argue or scold you like mad.. make your life like a living hell.. but i truly care and i just want you to know that..

losing you is the least thing i want to happen and even though i always act dumb just to see you smile.. i dont need you to smile all the time.. i dont want you to smile and put on your mask.. when you are with me, i want to see you.. not the mask.. and share your tears and anger..

frankly, i prefer you to cry and let it all go then acting strong and happy.. i just want you to be you.. my heart hurts so much seeing how much you have changed.. and it hurts everytime knowing that all your laughter is all an act..

i know you won't be reading this.. may be not just yet.. may be by the time you read this i will be resting in peace :P kidding. may be everything will be long over.. and life will just be too perfect to be true and may be you don't need me anymore.. but i just want you to know that i will love you for whoever you are.. and whatever happens just know that you have me here.. (actually this implies to everyone.. just know that i will be here and find me no matter what.. i will always have time for you.. because you are my friend.. a friend will always be there for each other and help each other through everything right?)

are you my friend then? (: