met Mas before going TM.. she got me a card and i think it is very sweet of her! i almost cried reading it! its realli motivational! thank you darling! (:
but went to TM alone cz i waited for her at the bus stop LOL but the wait was worth it :P

Had lunch at TM pizza hut with my class just know.. we went to play at timezone afterwards.. nat and i kept on watching these group of people who kept on taking dolls! they got like thousand small stitch dolls and 2 BIG dumbo! we kept on eyeing them LOL oh. we wanted to catch a movie together but we didnt in the end.. :P

went over to chelle's house and it was like a BIG mind cafe! of course with more games! LOL hahas ohh. playe The Shaking Tower of Jenga! LOL and they came up with a lot idiotic things to do lohh! i was so scared that i was going to lose! cz i will end up doing a crazy rock style h13 cheer! LOL n they would youtube it! :P besides, it was my first time playing the game LOL :P
lucky me lahhh~~ i didnt lose.. lol crystal did and i tell u ahh! it was NOT fair lohhh!!! they never let crystal do the cheer!!! HUHHHHHH! NOT FAIRRR! LOL

ahh.anyway. went fr dinner with nat and glynn afterwards.. (: ahh. i will post pictures taken today after nat and chelle send it to me ok? (: cant wait fr all funny vids and photos :P lol

huh. i had so much fun today.. i feel so guilty.. i know things are not meant to last.. and soon we need to part.. im very sad thinking about it..

recently i have not been myself.. well i feel tired and stuff.. i dont know how to explain.. is it because im pretending all these while?? pretending to be the loud and bubbly lya? pretending to be carefree and ignorant??

i used to put on a mask in front of everyone.. to be a happy go lucky kinda girl.. cz i dont want to let anyone worries about me.. but now..

i dunno if im actually putting a mask or not alr.. its like too deep inside of me and i cant even figure it out.. i feel like the real me is not friendly and bubbly at all.. not carefree and ignorant.. i wanted to show that i dont care.. that i cant understand.. but i want to understand it now.. i want to understand it again.. i want to be the me that i once was..

is it that feeling that changes me? is it the feeling of being near gavin again??

yes he isnt with me right now.. but i found someone that thinks and acts the way he does.. well at least used to.. i dont know if this is right to say this.. but how can 2 completely different souls act and think alike?? :P

and this actualli worries me.. not that im worried i'll fall fr him or what.. im worried about their similarities..im worried that i will be disappointed again.. im afraid of it.. i trusted gavin once.. thinking that he understands me and all.. but the smallest lil thing that he did actualli broke my heart and i dun want it to happen again.. well. he is a very best fren of mine..

the person i know whom is similar to him is only a friend but he is a great friend.. i dunno him a lot tho.. but still i dun want to lose a great friend like him.. arrrgghhhh.. ahh. even though i still talk to gav now..i can never trust him anymore.. and everything is just over.. *heart pain*

met Mas before going TM.. she got me a card and i think it is very sweet of her! i almost cried reading it! its realli motivational! thank you darling! (:
but went to TM alone cz i waited for her at the bus stop LOL but the wait was worth it :P

Had lunch at TM pizza hut with my class just know.. we went to play at timezone afterwards.. nat and i kept on watching these group of people who kept on taking dolls! they got like thousand small stitch dolls and 2 BIG dumbo! we kept on eyeing them LOL oh. we wanted to catch a movie together but we didnt in the end.. :P

went over to chelle's house and it was like a BIG mind cafe! of course with more games! LOL hahas ohh. playe The Shaking Tower of Jenga! LOL and they came up with a lot idiotic things to do lohh! i was so scared that i was going to lose! cz i will end up doing a crazy rock style h13 cheer! LOL n they would youtube it! :P besides, it was my first time playing the game LOL :P
lucky me lahhh~~ i didnt lose.. lol crystal did and i tell u ahh! it was NOT fair lohhh!!! they never let crystal do the cheer!!! HUHHHHHH! NOT FAIRRR! LOL

ahh.anyway. went fr dinner with nat and glynn afterwards.. (: ahh. i will post pictures taken today after nat and chelle send it to me ok? (: cant wait fr all funny vids and photos :P lol

huh. i had so much fun today.. i feel so guilty.. i know things are not meant to last.. and soon we need to part.. im very sad thinking about it..

recently i have not been myself.. well i feel tired and stuff.. i dont know how to explain.. is it because im pretending all these while?? pretending to be the loud and bubbly lya? pretending to be carefree and ignorant??

i used to put on a mask in front of everyone.. to be a happy go lucky kinda girl.. cz i dont want to let anyone worries about me.. but now..

i dunno if im actually putting a mask or not alr.. its like too deep inside of me and i cant even figure it out.. i feel like the real me is not friendly and bubbly at all.. not carefree and ignorant.. i wanted to show that i dont care.. that i cant understand.. but i want to understand it now.. i want to understand it again.. i want to be the me that i once was..

is it that feeling that changes me? is it the feeling of being near gavin again??

yes he isnt with me right now.. but i found someone that thinks and acts the way he does.. well at least used to.. i dont know if this is right to say this.. but how can 2 completely different souls act and think alike?? :P

and this actualli worries me.. not that im worried i'll fall fr him or what.. im worried about their similarities..im worried that i will be disappointed again.. im afraid of it.. i trusted gavin once.. thinking that he understands me and all.. but the smallest lil thing that he did actualli broke my heart and i dun want it to happen again.. well. he is a very best fren of mine..

the person i know whom is similar to him is only a friend but he is a great friend.. i dunno him a lot tho.. but still i dun want to lose a great friend like him.. arrrgghhhh.. ahh. even though i still talk to gav now..i can never trust him anymore.. and everything is just over.. *heart pain*