y no one seems to understand??
even the one that supposed to trusst me a lot does not trust me and complained that she has had enough. do u think im able to take all the pressure and stress now?? i have been very busy with pace events and projects. i want to complete everything before she comes here. i want to have fun and enjoy life too when she comes. i want to spend time with her..i havent seen her in a very long time and i miss her loads too.
but i cant just leave all my responsibility behind. she sent me here to study. and right now im doing my duty.. projects are part of my studies! and its not that i dont want to go ok! i CANT!
i know i am not a good daughter and yes. i am irresponsible. i am not commited and devoted. yes. i know. its not that i dont want to go and arrange everything fr my sis. cant u spare a tot fr me? i have not been sleeping well. slept at 3 woke up at 7 everyday. my eyes are far worse than panda's. i havent seen my friends in a long time. and i have not been eating and feeling well.
been feeling dizzy recently. and this morning when i woke up, i felt like i was having a fever. my head was really heavy T,T
i want to get some rest too. i want to stop complaining that im tired. i want to do my duty as a sister and i want to be responsible. but 24hrs is just not enough fr me. i have micro and bcs projects to be completed. i need to go to sch and immigration. need to meet annie. need to go n pay my sch fees. and she blamed me fr being ineffective!
i know that she is tired. i know she has loads of things to do too. but she has to learn how to listen to others. she needs to listen if she wants ppl to listen to her. she always do things her way and refused to let others comment on it. what for? everyone needs feedback to improve right?
why cant she listen to me justs once? i have not even finished saying my ideas and she yelled at me. i know its actually my fault. i always offer help to everyone. hoping i can reduce their heavy loads. without caring my own capacity. i always squeezed in things and try to help.
without realising, i actually hurt and drown myself.

i want to stop putting everyone on top of myself. i am selfish and care only about myself. but it is just hard fr me to refuse others and let them down. i want to stop all the miseries. i want everyone to be happy.

why cant time stop when i am having the happiest time of my life??

y no one seems to understand??
even the one that supposed to trusst me a lot does not trust me and complained that she has had enough. do u think im able to take all the pressure and stress now?? i have been very busy with pace events and projects. i want to complete everything before she comes here. i want to have fun and enjoy life too when she comes. i want to spend time with her..i havent seen her in a very long time and i miss her loads too.
but i cant just leave all my responsibility behind. she sent me here to study. and right now im doing my duty.. projects are part of my studies! and its not that i dont want to go ok! i CANT!
i know i am not a good daughter and yes. i am irresponsible. i am not commited and devoted. yes. i know. its not that i dont want to go and arrange everything fr my sis. cant u spare a tot fr me? i have not been sleeping well. slept at 3 woke up at 7 everyday. my eyes are far worse than panda's. i havent seen my friends in a long time. and i have not been eating and feeling well.
been feeling dizzy recently. and this morning when i woke up, i felt like i was having a fever. my head was really heavy T,T
i want to get some rest too. i want to stop complaining that im tired. i want to do my duty as a sister and i want to be responsible. but 24hrs is just not enough fr me. i have micro and bcs projects to be completed. i need to go to sch and immigration. need to meet annie. need to go n pay my sch fees. and she blamed me fr being ineffective!
i know that she is tired. i know she has loads of things to do too. but she has to learn how to listen to others. she needs to listen if she wants ppl to listen to her. she always do things her way and refused to let others comment on it. what for? everyone needs feedback to improve right?
why cant she listen to me justs once? i have not even finished saying my ideas and she yelled at me. i know its actually my fault. i always offer help to everyone. hoping i can reduce their heavy loads. without caring my own capacity. i always squeezed in things and try to help.
without realising, i actually hurt and drown myself.

i want to stop putting everyone on top of myself. i am selfish and care only about myself. but it is just hard fr me to refuse others and let them down. i want to stop all the miseries. i want everyone to be happy.

why cant time stop when i am having the happiest time of my life??