huaaah.
i dont know what to say now.
i have loads of stories to tell.
but i have no time now.
i just want to pour all my worry here.
nia is going to have her exam in sep or oct.
even tho i havent registered yet.
i still feel scared.
firstly bcz im scared it'll be full.
and if she cant take the exam that'll be my fault.
secondly. bcz she nvr study.
she isnt one who is initiative.
i have to call her to study.
and tell her to make a time table.
but even tho the time table is there.
she just never used it!
hehe ;p
actually same like me.
but i have my limit.
i know that i need to study cz im stupid.
and the problem with her is that she often acts as if she knows everything!
and that really irritates me!
everytime i tell her that she's wrong and reasoned why.
she acted as if i was nagging at her.
and she was like, "yea i know i know"
and that kind of reaction can make my anger just BURST!
cz it is unacceptable!
she knows that its wrong and yet she still did it!
i have a reason fr being angry.
i have a reason fr being irritated.
and i believe that im not wrong at all.
im her sister after all.
i only want the best for her.
i want her to get into school and stop wasting her own time.
BUT.
i really want to give up.
cz i dont know how to change her.
and i can nvvr change her.
cz she herself doesn't have the will to do so.
huhh.
perhaps she needs to learn the lesson the hard way??

God.
im really upset.
im really confused.
i believe everything happens fr the best.
so if nia'd have to learn it the hard way..
let it be.
but please dont hurt her.
and let her stand up on her feet again.
dont let her cry and feel the pain fr too long.
and please heal the wound.

huaaah.
i dont know what to say now.
i have loads of stories to tell.
but i have no time now.
i just want to pour all my worry here.
nia is going to have her exam in sep or oct.
even tho i havent registered yet.
i still feel scared.
firstly bcz im scared it'll be full.
and if she cant take the exam that'll be my fault.
secondly. bcz she nvr study.
she isnt one who is initiative.
i have to call her to study.
and tell her to make a time table.
but even tho the time table is there.
she just never used it!
hehe ;p
actually same like me.
but i have my limit.
i know that i need to study cz im stupid.
and the problem with her is that she often acts as if she knows everything!
and that really irritates me!
everytime i tell her that she's wrong and reasoned why.
she acted as if i was nagging at her.
and she was like, "yea i know i know"
and that kind of reaction can make my anger just BURST!
cz it is unacceptable!
she knows that its wrong and yet she still did it!
i have a reason fr being angry.
i have a reason fr being irritated.
and i believe that im not wrong at all.
im her sister after all.
i only want the best for her.
i want her to get into school and stop wasting her own time.
BUT.
i really want to give up.
cz i dont know how to change her.
and i can nvvr change her.
cz she herself doesn't have the will to do so.
huhh.
perhaps she needs to learn the lesson the hard way??

God.
im really upset.
im really confused.
i believe everything happens fr the best.
so if nia'd have to learn it the hard way..
let it be.
but please dont hurt her.
and let her stand up on her feet again.
dont let her cry and feel the pain fr too long.
and please heal the wound.