i have loads to talk.
ccn day and all.
but now i would just like to talk abt my mum.
i just had an argument with her over the phone.
at first we were chattin happily
but then she told me tht she just been to a weddin party last nite.
it was real grand and all.
so she said she also want to feel proud cz her daughter marries a rich guy.
and i told her tht if i were a mom i'll feel proud if my daughter
achieves SUCCESS and becomes RICH with her own hard work!
i understand how parents feel when they know tht their kids will have a good life.
but is havin all the money enuf?
does marrying a rich guy ensure your happiness?
no it does NOT!
and problem with parents is tht they think tht it does.
and they think tht they know BEST cz they are much older
and have much more experience thn us.
but they DONT UNDERSTAND US AT ALL!
they are selfish!
and my mum nvr open her minds!
she just refused to change her mindset!
u know thts the rough idea of wht usually happens to the girl in indonesia.
esp my city.
after sch they get married and have kids.
i dont want to be the typical girl.
i dont want to get married and have kids straight away.
i want to fulfill my dreams (one of which is meetin jae ;p)
i want to work at different part of the world.
i want to experience different lifestyles.
i want to go to japan and korea.
i want to do things tht i have never tried before i settle down.
so she was saying tht i dont need to study so hard.
there is no use of me goin fr higher education.
cz i'll end up not workin cz may b my future in laws/hubby dont let me to.
and i told her straight away tht i dont agree with her!
and the thing just continued.
she just continued to push her thoughts to me.
which i dont agree.
and the last few sentences before i gave the phone to my sister was like
sayin tht she feel ashamed and embarrassed.
she said even now some ppl have already lookd down on my parents.
firstly bcz the backstab thingy (which i dont nid to explain)
secondly bcz the kid of tht backstabber is goin to a more ex country to study.
have a filthy rich boyfriend, etc.
and those things make them proud.
fr me it doesnt matter at all.
i dont care abt it cz it doesnt affect me except fr the backstabbin thingy.
so i told her not to worry abt tht cz i'll ensure tht my parents would be proud of me not because i marry a rich guy, havin a glamorous lifestyle or whtver it is.
but bcz i successfully accomplish my dreams with all my hardwork.
but she was like sayin tht they dont hav to work so hard and enjoy a very good life.
and i said 'nth comes free in this world'
i believe i have to work hard to achieve my goals.
and the argument coninued (but i dont really rmb oldy)
there's one part whre she said she doesnt like me the way i am.
cz imnt feminine and she likes feminine girls.
she doesnt like me to be tomboy n would like me to change.
i told her tht the time will come and i will change when the time comes.
and i also told her cz i want to enjoy my life.
if possible i want to be as carefree as a bird.
i want to do anything tht i love.
i dont want to pretend to be someone im not!
and i told her tht i wont pretend to be quiet and feminine
just to attract guys.
cz its disgustin.
and i gt scolded again.
ok lets stop tokin abt this cz i just managed to stop cryin.
i dont want to cry again.
so good nite everyone.

PS. im really disappointed in my mum.
she's spposed to b the one who understands me best.
and she is supposed to be the one who loves me the way i am.
but the truth is tht she wants me to be somebody imnt.
knowin it breaks my heart.
i feel devastated.
tho i know she onli wants the best fr me.
she wants me to hav a gud life.
but in a traditional way.
with the current rate of modern lifestyle.
her "strategy to a good life" is not efficient!

i have loads to talk.
ccn day and all.
but now i would just like to talk abt my mum.
i just had an argument with her over the phone.
at first we were chattin happily
but then she told me tht she just been to a weddin party last nite.
it was real grand and all.
so she said she also want to feel proud cz her daughter marries a rich guy.
and i told her tht if i were a mom i'll feel proud if my daughter
achieves SUCCESS and becomes RICH with her own hard work!
i understand how parents feel when they know tht their kids will have a good life.
but is havin all the money enuf?
does marrying a rich guy ensure your happiness?
no it does NOT!
and problem with parents is tht they think tht it does.
and they think tht they know BEST cz they are much older
and have much more experience thn us.
but they DONT UNDERSTAND US AT ALL!
they are selfish!
and my mum nvr open her minds!
she just refused to change her mindset!
u know thts the rough idea of wht usually happens to the girl in indonesia.
esp my city.
after sch they get married and have kids.
i dont want to be the typical girl.
i dont want to get married and have kids straight away.
i want to fulfill my dreams (one of which is meetin jae ;p)
i want to work at different part of the world.
i want to experience different lifestyles.
i want to go to japan and korea.
i want to do things tht i have never tried before i settle down.
so she was saying tht i dont need to study so hard.
there is no use of me goin fr higher education.
cz i'll end up not workin cz may b my future in laws/hubby dont let me to.
and i told her straight away tht i dont agree with her!
and the thing just continued.
she just continued to push her thoughts to me.
which i dont agree.
and the last few sentences before i gave the phone to my sister was like
sayin tht she feel ashamed and embarrassed.
she said even now some ppl have already lookd down on my parents.
firstly bcz the backstab thingy (which i dont nid to explain)
secondly bcz the kid of tht backstabber is goin to a more ex country to study.
have a filthy rich boyfriend, etc.
and those things make them proud.
fr me it doesnt matter at all.
i dont care abt it cz it doesnt affect me except fr the backstabbin thingy.
so i told her not to worry abt tht cz i'll ensure tht my parents would be proud of me not because i marry a rich guy, havin a glamorous lifestyle or whtver it is.
but bcz i successfully accomplish my dreams with all my hardwork.
but she was like sayin tht they dont hav to work so hard and enjoy a very good life.
and i said 'nth comes free in this world'
i believe i have to work hard to achieve my goals.
and the argument coninued (but i dont really rmb oldy)
there's one part whre she said she doesnt like me the way i am.
cz imnt feminine and she likes feminine girls.
she doesnt like me to be tomboy n would like me to change.
i told her tht the time will come and i will change when the time comes.
and i also told her cz i want to enjoy my life.
if possible i want to be as carefree as a bird.
i want to do anything tht i love.
i dont want to pretend to be someone im not!
and i told her tht i wont pretend to be quiet and feminine
just to attract guys.
cz its disgustin.
and i gt scolded again.
ok lets stop tokin abt this cz i just managed to stop cryin.
i dont want to cry again.
so good nite everyone.

PS. im really disappointed in my mum.
she's spposed to b the one who understands me best.
and she is supposed to be the one who loves me the way i am.
but the truth is tht she wants me to be somebody imnt.
knowin it breaks my heart.
i feel devastated.
tho i know she onli wants the best fr me.
she wants me to hav a gud life.
but in a traditional way.
with the current rate of modern lifestyle.
her "strategy to a good life" is not efficient!