i really dont know what to say!
i feel very sick..
in the morning when i woke up..
i feel dizzy and all..
just like when my blood pressure is low..
actually in the morning i tried not to feel very sickk..
oyea this morning wen i took my O cirt..
i met mrs.lee!
yay! :)
very happy..
but dont get to see ms.jumma and other teachers..
cz i was rushin fr class..
k back to the main stry..
i really wan to discuss abt ccn day..
cz its my duty..
i dont wan to be an irresponsible class rep..
but nobody seems to cooperate with me willingly..
yesterday wen sophia mentiond tht class rep may b hated by a lot ppl..
i was thinking tht its olryt..
cz evryone has diff point of view abt others..
and i think i can take it cz im used to it..
i have been backstabbed a lot of times..
and i dont even have a best fren now..
isnt tht sad?
huuh..
im holding my tears wen writing this..
but this is my life..
and in my life..
things just seem to be fake..
nothing is real except my dreams and goals..
why is tht so?
imnt sure abt it myself..
16 years plus of livin..
i only have 2 best frens..
really best..
the one tht always there fr me..
the one tht always support me in anything i do..
the one tht really understand me..
but now we are separated frm each other..
and i cant find anyone better than them..
i really feel like crying..
at least i know tht my family will always be there fr me..
bsdes im still young..
i just need more time to find true frens and true happiness..
but one thing i still dont understand is..
why i always bein the one given test in live?
why am i always the one with troubles and such?
why am i always bein betrayed or left alone??
and why no one seems to care and willing to help me when im in need?
i always try to help everyone nt bcz i want them to help me or pay me back..
i always try to help when i can as i believe in changing ppl's life..
am i born to suffer fr the rest of my life??
i know im irritating..
i know i talk a lot..
and i know tht a lot ppl may not like me..
and im fine wth it..
i still help them when they need my help..
and i dont hate them fr tht..
but y ppl onli look fr me when they need help?
y ppl onli come to me when they want to have fun?
and why ppl left me when im nothing??
nothing is fair in this world..
though i always try to do good things..
tho i always try to make ppl laugh even i look stupid..
and tho i always want to see evryone in high spirit..
im still the bad one..
im still the one tht ppl hate..
i guess i cant hold my tears back anymore..
i guess i can no longer hold on..
i guess if this goes on..
until at least this may..
i will just quit..
i dont want anymore pressure..
i just want to study hard and be the top 10..
i just want to lead a simple life..
i just want true happiness..
true friends..
i dont want anything FAKE~
God..
can u please fulfill my wishes?
cz now i feel my dreams are very far away..
i feel like my dreams are hazy and wont come true..
God..
please give me the faith once more..
to believe i can do my best..
for what i always want..
please..
this faith will be my guide..
i promise~
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